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| - Lovers and Friends Well today was a better day then yesterday. Hung out with Zimmy and got some things accomplished, which was nice. Hung out with a couple friends and had a pretty good time. We went to the mall, and the park to "bark" at the ducks and geese (something Zimmy does all the time). I then went to the bowling alley and got everything in order for the doubles tournament me and Jonesy are bowling in out at Sugarcreek Saturday afternoon.
Over the weekend someone decided to run into my winter car and then leave. So, now it's completely smashed and I have no idea who did it to make sure it gets fixed. I guess I was right about this year being really bad after Colby's burnt down on my birthday.
Well, I think I'm done rambling about nothing now. I'll try to start actually posting on here daily from now on. Goodnight everyone. | | |
| Well it's been forever again since I've posted here....sorry guys. Well I'm now 23 and I feel no different. I sat at home on my b-day with nothin to do. Went to the bowling alley Friday night and got a decent buzz goin, then got punched by one of my friends. Went to Bentley's on Saturday and got completely wasted, ruined a brand new abercrombie shirt.
I'm starting to think that I really can't live without someone special in my life. There is one girl that I have been trying to get to hang out with me for months now. It just seems like everytime I'm free she's not and when she's free I'm not. Hopefully we can change that soon, and she'll let me make her dinner or something like that for Valentine's Day. (Ashers you know who I'm talking about). Well guys, I'm going to stop rambling about things that no one cares about now. Later. | | |
| - Blueberry Yum Yum Well, it's Friday and I still have no clue what's goin on for tonight. Haven't talked to Melissa in a couple days, and I don't know if she really wants to do anything with me still or not. Haven't had the greatest week, but hopefully things are going to start getting better. I've been doing alot of thinking about life and about how my dad would see me now and what he would say about the way things are going for me. I'm sure he would have plenty of advice and comments for me. I have a feeling he wouldn't be very happy with my decisions in life since he died.
Well, anyays, I'm just going to stop rambling and find something to do with my day. Everyone take care and have a little fun with your lives. Also, if anyone has Saturday available come to Bentley's with me and some friends and have a good time. | | |
| - Cursed - - - -
Well let's see here. Yeah, I definately had one bad New Years. Which wasn't exactly a big suprise. This whole year kinda sucked. But it's 2005 now and hopefully things will go alot better for me. Just to fill you in on my wonderful New Year's Eve....I stayed at home until after 8 pm, and then decided to run to Josh's house to make an appearance and talk to a couple friends and then come home hoping to have a message from Melissa about going to a party with me. Well after a little less then an hour of sitting at Josh's I said bye to everyone and was on my way home. I made it 10 blocks and my car died on me (gotta love winter cars). So there I sit trying to get it started until I decided ok time to walk. So, I walked down to the nearest gas station and used the phone there to call Josh and Jermaine to come help me out, which wasn't exactly a good idea since they were both drunk. So, as midnight passed and the new year came along there I sat on the Tuscarawas bridge trying to fix my car. I got home a little after 12:30 to find out that I had yet again pissed everyone off by not being around and not getting ahold of everyone for new years. So, I made some Chef Boyardee Lasagna and went to bed. 2005 better start getting better really soon. | | |
| - Suicide Letters -
Well yesterday was quite possibly one of the worst days of my life since my dad died. I woke up to find out that one of my so called best friends is talkin shit behind my back, and not is he just talkin shit but he's saying incredibly ridiculous lies about me to everyone that he knows that I know. I confronted him and he lied straight to my face, and still thinks I'm goin to hang out with him today for New Years. HA, I don't think so. So, after hearing all this shit and completely getting pissed I decide I'm just goin to go for a long drive and try to calm down and push everything to the back of my head so I can try to have a half decent evening and night. Well this didn't work a bit, because as I'm driving on a back country road in the middle of no where my car decides to die. So there I sit for about 2 hours trying to get it started, getting more and more pissed at how my life has gone in the last couple months. So, I sit there, by myself, basically thanking God for putting me into this world to go through the things that I have went through. They always say what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger. Well what doesn't kill you will only make you want to die as far as I'm concerned. I have done nothing but disappoint people and make myself look more and more like an ass everyday. Why should I even stay here letting myself continue on with the life I'm leading? I think I'll just either move away from this place and everyone here, or just end it all and leave the world forever. Favorite song right now- Tech N9ne- Suicide Letters....listen to it sometime. | | |
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